Just found out......

That the woman that sold me our car insurance, that I have had with the same company since 1979, and whom I have four cars on a policy with, has cancer.

I have never met her face to face. I have spoken with her on the phone many times over the years, and each time we spend more time chatting about life than anything else. I can say that Bev is a genuine friend. One that has always been there for me to answer any questions, and has worked to find solutions to my problems whenever I have called complaining. Always willing to go the extra step. She is why I continue my coverage where I do.

When her agent told me this today, I was shocked. When she told me that Bev would not be in the office any more, I assumed it was because she was retiring. She must be older than me by 10 years or more. I just figured it was time. When she told me she would not be in the office, I said to her "oh, I knew that was coming", referring to retirement. Not because of cancer. I had no idea.

I also had no idea that she considered me her friend. When Candace told me that Bev was not telling many people, but that she considered me a friend, and wanted me to know, I was deeply touched. Deeply!!

I'm not an easy person to like. Or should I say it more realistically in that I'm hard to like, because I'm really not very social. Or maybe it's more that I tend to be hard to like, because I don't like to be around. Well, for what ever reason, I don't have a lot of friends. So to have someone tell me that I'm considered their friend, someone that I only talk to two or three times a year if that, was very touching. Then to find out that person is sick, that took me back a bit.

I have a great desire to meet face to face with Bev, and tell her just that. To hold her hand, or rub her feet just because she is my friend. To see her face, and tell her how much it means to me that she considers me her friend.

I will make that call, and talk to Candace, and ask her if I can come and see Bev. To look into the eyes of my friend, and to let her know that I care. One simple act of kindness on my part for the simplest act of kindness on her part, that meant so much to me!!


Love you Bev!!

I'm back here to stay~

So, look how long it's been since I last posted. I'm abandoning my old blog because it's too hard to find most of the time. That, and since I mostly use only a gmail account, I can't link the old one to FB because it's a yahoo. Or so I think. Either way, here is where I will now post.

Lately, I have so not be balancing my life with things that I know I should be focused on, and all other things. Yes, my spiritual life has sort of fallen short of the mark. I really miss my friend Andrea, as she in her simple way kept me accountable. Just in that her life is Christ focused. She may be hard to work with, and somewhat of a moodster, but she knows her place and where God is in that for her.

I have been really focused on running. It's an honest thing, and does give me time to pray and spend time with God. If I choose to do that, or if I'm running alone. That in itself is a problem. I've joined a running group, and that 'alone' thing is less than I want it to be. I do enjoy the company and the companionship but it draws me away. I need to find a way to focus and have friends.

I got this really crazy FB post a couple of weeks ago, from someone that is a christian cyclist. He invited me to be a part of the group. I joined the group online, so now I get all their emails, but haven't been on a ride with them yet. Need to do that.

So, don't really have much to say tonight, so will sign off.

tonie